Sharing mind consciousness with everyone -
1st off, it's forced - I don't know how else to explain that.
And they send me these dreams and images, I mostly discount them all, because I don't trust anything from them! Although, I will say, last night was memorable. When they incorporate DIALOG in the dream it is very weird, because I wake up wondering, what the heck just happened.
They are starting more of these FALSE wake ups, their version of false wake ups, you know a dream within a dream kind of thing. It's kind of outside of their terror tactics. Normally for terror tactics they go straight to the heart-horrors involving young-and beheadings (which has lead me to believe this to be a very painful death).
They are kind of under STRICT guidelines, I'm not sure what exactly happens when they ignore these guidelines, or who exactly is pulling the strings, but one guy said today "Lord, leave us!"---They actually think I WANT to be involved in their group?! Ever since they started vocalizing to me or telepathy, my wank time has suffered tremendously. I'm serious. I had knew people knew where I was all the time, and could read my mind, but I was still able to masturbate quietly from time to time. Now it's constantly suffering and I'm constantly in danger of losing the one thing that keeps me relatively sane. For instance, when I'm getting into it, theres someone saying "Oh my God", so then I started kind of having to moan just kind of drown out someone saying "Oh my God". It's not like I'm being flippantly dismissive, it's just that, I've gotten a 'feel' for this group, so I dismiss their objections because to me THEY LIVE IN A FAKE KID'S WORLD WITH FAKE MORALS AND FAKE PROTECTION. They love false equivalence. They seem stupid to me and I'll never understand them. They ask for impossible nonsense and then have a fucking TEMPERTANTRUM when they don't get their way. They call me a dog, when I believe the reverse to be true. They tell me to leave, get out, etc, when I've made it PERFECTLY clear I'm not going anywhere.
They have different tactics over the years that have failed miserably. Although, these latest dreams have been surreal and interesting. I almost felt like that woman(it was a man) was actually going to tell me the truth, I mean she certainly had that tone, and when she was talking to me, it was very different. I remember it less now. I'm going to have to keep a diary near me, because IDK, I get more truth as to why they are attached to me from the dialogs than anything else.
From last night's dialog, it seemed like she was saying they were trying different tactics to get what they want, yet what they want is my destruction. They are with me ALWAYS, so if you don't remember ANYTHING else, know this: I know you guys want my destruction, I know very well that I am not a God or anything else, you simply want me gone and are willing to do anything to get what you want. Anything EXCEPT the actual do(kill me), that is one of the most puzzling things. It's the ONLY thing that makes this seem somewhat about divinity and the soul. Mostly everything I've experienced has been trivial, insane, terrorist-like, and conspiratorial. Yet this thing is quite hilarious. They want me dead, so they say they're me from the other side. Ok. This past year was a mix of confusing foolishness constantly coming from them. Ok. They act like they can't remember things from day to day, and I'm not talking about pulling a memory up from my past, I'm talking about dreams or images they have sent. They send, then forget.
Yes, if they are SO big and bad, like last night they sent me an image of a hurt child, if they so bad, they want me dead, why they don't just kill me? YO, if I'm such a dog...why you don't just kill me? They specifically need me to do this myself. Heres whats OVER THE TOP FUNNY, JOKER ASS GROUP WANTS TO PURPORT TO BE SPIRITUAL or ANGELS or something like that, right, but they want to OVERRIDE everything known about anything spiritual. You don't get divinity by killing yourself. In fact, if you kill someone you lose your divinity, seems like that's what they're trying to avoid. They can do ALL of these scare tactics, but I know what's up. I can go ANYWHERE. They can't touch me. I don't know about the other side though, I don't even know if there is another side. Shit, they got 1 thing out millions of other things that lead me to believe this is a human driven attack against me. Last night in the dialog of my dream, which may have actually happened this morning around 7, anyway, last night, this I tell this woman something along the lines of, "I just want to you to know that I don't believe you guys are Angels or Aliens, I think you are Nazis, or the KKK with advanced technology". I said it clearly, without studdering, as though I'd known her all my life. And yeah, I do believe that, I mean I woke up thinking, that's right on the money, HOWEVER, that KKK thing was new, and they have stayed clear from mentioning DISNEY and NASA. I mentioned the Nazis, they mentioned the Nazis. I mentioned the NSA prism program, they too have mentioned the NSA in prior dreams...they have neglected to mention DISNEY. Here is why this is important, and what I'm going to mention would scare most people as it has done to me, but I just live with it. Anyway, in addition to sharing consciousness and little telepathic messages here and there, something happens when I watch tv, not all of the time, but a lot of times it does, and if I really think about it, this seems like it started in 2014ish, but really I've been getting little minute messages since I was maybe 15 years old. There was a movie called Wrong Turn, in which a guy in the movie oddly sticks up his middle finger right b4 the scene changes.
Fast forward to post 2014, a lot of weird little things sometimes happen, where it seems as though the TV is responding to me in real time. Shows that I've seen in the past, appear to me as different or altered in some way now. Vince Vaugh mouthed the word "Fucker" in that Anchorman movie. Little kinds of different things.
Yes, the climate against me is growing increasingly worse, yet I remain unbothered and will continue to remain unbothered. THEY WILL NOT be making me flinch again!!! I stand by that. I don't know how they keep getting me. Like how they got me in El Paso. I mean, to be fair, everytime they do get me, I bounce back, and adapt to it. Like I know there are going to be some groans and annoying sounds at times right b4 I go to sleep. I've adapted. I know they have the ability to speak clearly with either low volume or high volume in your mind. I've adapted. I know they will use children in a ploy to deter me from PRIVATE matters that I HAVE TO ATTEND to. I've adapted. I know they like to employ all manners of tactics: bullying, spying, embarrassing, harassing, flattering, name-calling, physical violence, sleep deprivation. Yes, sleep deprivation and physical violence, this goes hand and hand, because as I've said earlier, they have these little times where they just appear all around(outlines of faces in the walls), where you can't watch too much of anything on tv, where they send you all these horrid images that make it hard to get to sleep. I've SOMEWHAT adapted to this, but I don't think I'll be able to avoid a trip to the mental hospital again, because sometimes I do need sleep, and during these little 'blitz' times, they send all manner of things. Sometimes they are just suggestive more than anything, yet it keeps me awake. Ex: they sent me a squirrel, walking on a window ledge, then going behind the window blinds and the blinds got bigger and shook. I don't know, my mind might think something bad is happening to the squirrel, so I open my eyes.
I'm less worried about me being ugly, but I'm SCARED shitless that I will lose the ability to cum, I mean, bruh, that is an Ugly woman's ace up the sleeve. If you can get satisfied by any means, THAT IS A PROBLEM so I could give a fk about their feelings or drama or whatever. I'll never abandon what makes me cum.
I hate how they use childrens voices, like last night there was some little girl speaking which in their fucked up nonsensical world might have very well been a guy. Call me a dick, but I get to moaning, which HURTS the mindspace for the fantasy. I moan, because those are not my children, I'm in my private fucking ROOM, minding my own mathafucking business, K? No one tells me what to do, alright. And you can really start to notice a pattern with them. When THEY are in control, then its all good. They having fun, living lavi, when I'm in control, then it's a problem. Nikka, you better eat glass.
Fuck outta here.
Matter fact, if it is the KKK, why would I ever bow down NOW in my mortal body, where I enjoy constant freedom?
Nah bruh, when I'm a dog, I guess I'm bow, but until then, I'll do what I want, WHEN I want! Fuck outta here!!!
1st off, it's forced - I don't know how else to explain that.
And they send me these dreams and images, I mostly discount them all, because I don't trust anything from them! Although, I will say, last night was memorable. When they incorporate DIALOG in the dream it is very weird, because I wake up wondering, what the heck just happened.
They are starting more of these FALSE wake ups, their version of false wake ups, you know a dream within a dream kind of thing. It's kind of outside of their terror tactics. Normally for terror tactics they go straight to the heart-horrors involving young-and beheadings (which has lead me to believe this to be a very painful death).
They are kind of under STRICT guidelines, I'm not sure what exactly happens when they ignore these guidelines, or who exactly is pulling the strings, but one guy said today "Lord, leave us!"---They actually think I WANT to be involved in their group?! Ever since they started vocalizing to me or telepathy, my wank time has suffered tremendously. I'm serious. I had knew people knew where I was all the time, and could read my mind, but I was still able to masturbate quietly from time to time. Now it's constantly suffering and I'm constantly in danger of losing the one thing that keeps me relatively sane. For instance, when I'm getting into it, theres someone saying "Oh my God", so then I started kind of having to moan just kind of drown out someone saying "Oh my God". It's not like I'm being flippantly dismissive, it's just that, I've gotten a 'feel' for this group, so I dismiss their objections because to me THEY LIVE IN A FAKE KID'S WORLD WITH FAKE MORALS AND FAKE PROTECTION. They love false equivalence. They seem stupid to me and I'll never understand them. They ask for impossible nonsense and then have a fucking TEMPERTANTRUM when they don't get their way. They call me a dog, when I believe the reverse to be true. They tell me to leave, get out, etc, when I've made it PERFECTLY clear I'm not going anywhere.
They have different tactics over the years that have failed miserably. Although, these latest dreams have been surreal and interesting. I almost felt like that woman(it was a man) was actually going to tell me the truth, I mean she certainly had that tone, and when she was talking to me, it was very different. I remember it less now. I'm going to have to keep a diary near me, because IDK, I get more truth as to why they are attached to me from the dialogs than anything else.
From last night's dialog, it seemed like she was saying they were trying different tactics to get what they want, yet what they want is my destruction. They are with me ALWAYS, so if you don't remember ANYTHING else, know this: I know you guys want my destruction, I know very well that I am not a God or anything else, you simply want me gone and are willing to do anything to get what you want. Anything EXCEPT the actual do(kill me), that is one of the most puzzling things. It's the ONLY thing that makes this seem somewhat about divinity and the soul. Mostly everything I've experienced has been trivial, insane, terrorist-like, and conspiratorial. Yet this thing is quite hilarious. They want me dead, so they say they're me from the other side. Ok. This past year was a mix of confusing foolishness constantly coming from them. Ok. They act like they can't remember things from day to day, and I'm not talking about pulling a memory up from my past, I'm talking about dreams or images they have sent. They send, then forget.
Yes, if they are SO big and bad, like last night they sent me an image of a hurt child, if they so bad, they want me dead, why they don't just kill me? YO, if I'm such a dog...why you don't just kill me? They specifically need me to do this myself. Heres whats OVER THE TOP FUNNY, JOKER ASS GROUP WANTS TO PURPORT TO BE SPIRITUAL or ANGELS or something like that, right, but they want to OVERRIDE everything known about anything spiritual. You don't get divinity by killing yourself. In fact, if you kill someone you lose your divinity, seems like that's what they're trying to avoid. They can do ALL of these scare tactics, but I know what's up. I can go ANYWHERE. They can't touch me. I don't know about the other side though, I don't even know if there is another side. Shit, they got 1 thing out millions of other things that lead me to believe this is a human driven attack against me. Last night in the dialog of my dream, which may have actually happened this morning around 7, anyway, last night, this I tell this woman something along the lines of, "I just want to you to know that I don't believe you guys are Angels or Aliens, I think you are Nazis, or the KKK with advanced technology". I said it clearly, without studdering, as though I'd known her all my life. And yeah, I do believe that, I mean I woke up thinking, that's right on the money, HOWEVER, that KKK thing was new, and they have stayed clear from mentioning DISNEY and NASA. I mentioned the Nazis, they mentioned the Nazis. I mentioned the NSA prism program, they too have mentioned the NSA in prior dreams...they have neglected to mention DISNEY. Here is why this is important, and what I'm going to mention would scare most people as it has done to me, but I just live with it. Anyway, in addition to sharing consciousness and little telepathic messages here and there, something happens when I watch tv, not all of the time, but a lot of times it does, and if I really think about it, this seems like it started in 2014ish, but really I've been getting little minute messages since I was maybe 15 years old. There was a movie called Wrong Turn, in which a guy in the movie oddly sticks up his middle finger right b4 the scene changes.
Fast forward to post 2014, a lot of weird little things sometimes happen, where it seems as though the TV is responding to me in real time. Shows that I've seen in the past, appear to me as different or altered in some way now. Vince Vaugh mouthed the word "Fucker" in that Anchorman movie. Little kinds of different things.
Yes, the climate against me is growing increasingly worse, yet I remain unbothered and will continue to remain unbothered. THEY WILL NOT be making me flinch again!!! I stand by that. I don't know how they keep getting me. Like how they got me in El Paso. I mean, to be fair, everytime they do get me, I bounce back, and adapt to it. Like I know there are going to be some groans and annoying sounds at times right b4 I go to sleep. I've adapted. I know they have the ability to speak clearly with either low volume or high volume in your mind. I've adapted. I know they will use children in a ploy to deter me from PRIVATE matters that I HAVE TO ATTEND to. I've adapted. I know they like to employ all manners of tactics: bullying, spying, embarrassing, harassing, flattering, name-calling, physical violence, sleep deprivation. Yes, sleep deprivation and physical violence, this goes hand and hand, because as I've said earlier, they have these little times where they just appear all around(outlines of faces in the walls), where you can't watch too much of anything on tv, where they send you all these horrid images that make it hard to get to sleep. I've SOMEWHAT adapted to this, but I don't think I'll be able to avoid a trip to the mental hospital again, because sometimes I do need sleep, and during these little 'blitz' times, they send all manner of things. Sometimes they are just suggestive more than anything, yet it keeps me awake. Ex: they sent me a squirrel, walking on a window ledge, then going behind the window blinds and the blinds got bigger and shook. I don't know, my mind might think something bad is happening to the squirrel, so I open my eyes.
I'm less worried about me being ugly, but I'm SCARED shitless that I will lose the ability to cum, I mean, bruh, that is an Ugly woman's ace up the sleeve. If you can get satisfied by any means, THAT IS A PROBLEM so I could give a fk about their feelings or drama or whatever. I'll never abandon what makes me cum.
I hate how they use childrens voices, like last night there was some little girl speaking which in their fucked up nonsensical world might have very well been a guy. Call me a dick, but I get to moaning, which HURTS the mindspace for the fantasy. I moan, because those are not my children, I'm in my private fucking ROOM, minding my own mathafucking business, K? No one tells me what to do, alright. And you can really start to notice a pattern with them. When THEY are in control, then its all good. They having fun, living lavi, when I'm in control, then it's a problem. Nikka, you better eat glass.
Fuck outta here.
Matter fact, if it is the KKK, why would I ever bow down NOW in my mortal body, where I enjoy constant freedom?
Nah bruh, when I'm a dog, I guess I'm bow, but until then, I'll do what I want, WHEN I want! Fuck outta here!!!
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